Week 3 Day 10

Please send help. I forgot how much standing, talking and patience is required. My internal screaming has intensified. Staff and children can be like cat herding. All have an opinion of which way they should go and why, and I, I am to constantly solve problems and sort differences of opinions.

Last week was my first full week back in full time work. As per usual I threw myself head long into it with high expectations. I never realised how high my expectations of myself truely were until I returned. I guess my lesson to learn this final term of 2020 is forgiveness of myself with lower expectations.

Seven months of leave makes you realise how tiring teaching really can be. It meant I did listen to my body so didn’t do my normal exercise classes. That was my first mistake. Those exercise classes are my sanity. By the end of the week I could not fathom why I was feeling so down and trapped in my head. Then Second Son suggested I take a run with him. That was the best medicine.

So in two weeks back full time working I have started to learn to forgive myself, lower my expectations and go to my exercise classes. We are all so busy trying to keep busy and out busy each other. There is no point in trying to out busy each other.

However I have missed my cat herding. I do really like my teaching job. The logic of kids including high schoolers makes me chuckle non stop. Especially when I have to keep a poker face when a kid is explaining why they have done something incredibly stupid. Once they explain you can kinda see that their motivation does make sense, or maybe I’m just strange.

So week 3 day 10 I am going to show up to my job, make my coffee and continue to enjoy the ride. Twenty years into my teaching career and I’ve never had two days the same. But if you can….please send chocolate. It really does help 😉