A number of years ago I said to a friend, “I think I’d like to write little essays on things I’ve learnt and stuff”. Her reply was one of enthusiasm and that’s as far as that idea went. Blogging didn’t even occur to me and certainly never on the internet! Well fast forward 10 years and Husband Dear become ridiculously ill and I ended up on extended leave. I found out that I don’t do well with no work. So that seed of an idea was finally getting the right conditions to germinate.
I got excited. Then I started asking lots of questions, and of course I went to the fountain of all knowledge my local library for research. Also online research to back up or expand what I read. I was going to join the ranks of bloggers and go across some social media platforms.
For me this was scary stuff. I was actually going to have to put myself out there. Authentically put myself out there and take ownership on what and how I wanted to say and show. For the first time in a long time I started to feel creative energy come back to me. I was excited and scared!
I didn’t realise how much “stuff” there was about social media accounts or doing WordPress. How does one do all this? So I did what I always do, become a small child and push buttons. Button pushing monkey is usually what I refer to myself in these situations. And whadya know! Pushing buttons got me to where I needed to be. I got a blog and was across three social media platforms I was comfortable on.
However this new found confidence didn’t stop there! An acting promotional role came up where I work. I decided to take another chance on me. I got the help of a friend cause I’ll be honest I suck at writing to selection criteria. She helped me and I realised if I removed myself from the cringeworthy ego of it all (sorry I find selection criteria ego driven and cringeworthy) then I was able to write.
I guess all I’m saying is that if you have that seed of an idea don’t worry if it takes 10 years for it to find the right conditions to germinate. But you will need to have the courage to take that leap of faith. You never know you may discover a new passion or job and in the process discover a new found confidence. As 2020 draws to its enviable end what will you take a chance on for yourself?
Grateful Wonder 