Who has the blankets??

So I’m pretty sure most couples whether married, engaged or long term has an inkling of what I may discuss next.

Imagine it’s nighttime and after a long hard day all you want to do is get comfy for Mr Sandman. Now after being with my husband for just on 20 years I have a particular night time ritual.

He tells me it’s like trying to fall asleep next to a cat. He’s version of events for me falling asleep involves me going round and round to get the right indent on my side of the mattress. There may or may not be a little scratching involved and pillow puffing and flipping.

I then must have sheets pulled tight and covering me least the monster from under the bed may touch me. We all know that if you hang a foot or hand over the edge something may touch it in the middle of the night. You know I’m right! There are things that will go bump in the night, especially if you deliberately hang your foot or hand off the side of the bed.

If you’re not tucked in right, stuff might get you!

Now once I have gone through my routine my Husband will inevitably mess it up. He loves to push the blankets to me as he rolls to the right. He always has his left leg above the sheets and somehow the sheets for him never go above his chest. Then he does this strange thing with his feet which pulls the blankets further down to the foot of the bed.

Thing is, he’s the one that then complains that I have stolen all the sheets or blankets. That man has no idea how to maintain even bedding coverage on his side of the bed. Nights when he is away sees me barley move on my side. And when I wake up in the morning I have the same amount of bedding I went to sleep with. I know for a fact that never happens to him.

Frankly I just don’t understand. I don’t get how one person can move sheets all around and then thinks I’ve stolen them!!! Apparently my Husband believes that the issue is all with me. That it is I that steals all the bedding. Does anyone else have these nightly bedding problems? If so what has been your solution?

Thank You

This week is a celebration in Queensland for State Education Week ending on Friday with World Teachers Day. It is also the week that I get to celebrate with some amazing teachers in the QCT TeachX Awards Ceremony.

I am honoured that I was shortlisted out of 400 applicants to the top ten in my category. Thursday is a virtual awards ceremony to celebrate the winners in each category. So why am I telling you all this? Well I want to give a massive shout out to the people who did my application. You see I knew nothing about this celebration award thing.

All my life I was told to work hard, do your job well and good things will follow. Now in my mind that was things like promotions or being able to lead teams or be apart of special projects. However none of those “things” actually happened to me. Or so I thought.

Instead, what I have come to realise is something of far greater importance. I have the respect of my colleagues and bosses. I have leeway to carry out new and different ideas. I am leading teams but not how I thought. I lead by doing. I lead by collaborating and networking with other talented people receiving their feedback for various improvements.

I recently read the book “Wolfpack” by Abby Wambach and took a number of her points to heart. Especially the idea of leading from the bench. Doing anything to assist my colleagues to achieve either an idea or school goal or to make sure our kids get what they need. The idea of leading from the bench has been life changing for me.

It has made me realise that when you are doing your job and truely supporting and collaborating with your peers, good things do happen. Colleagues saw what I was doing and nominated me for an award. Whether I “win” or not means little to me. I have already won. I get to work with amazing people everyday. So thank you to those amazing people who saw me and nominated me. I don’t know if you realise how truely appreciative and humbled I am by your gesture. So I’ll say a very simple Thank You, and can’t wait to get back to sharing, collaborating and working with you all today.

Week 3 Day 10

Please send help. I forgot how much standing, talking and patience is required. My internal screaming has intensified. Staff and children can be like cat herding. All have an opinion of which way they should go and why, and I, I am to constantly solve problems and sort differences of opinions.

Last week was my first full week back in full time work. As per usual I threw myself head long into it with high expectations. I never realised how high my expectations of myself truely were until I returned. I guess my lesson to learn this final term of 2020 is forgiveness of myself with lower expectations.

Me for the last two weeks when teaching my students.

Seven months of leave makes you realise how tiring teaching really can be. It meant I did listen to my body so didn’t do my normal exercise classes. That was my first mistake. Those exercise classes are my sanity. By the end of the week I could not fathom why I was feeling so down and trapped in my head. Then Second Son suggested I take a run with him. That was the best medicine.

So in two weeks back full time working I have started to learn to forgive myself, lower my expectations and go to my exercise classes. We are all so busy trying to keep busy and out busy each other. There is no point in trying to out busy each other.

However I have missed my cat herding. I do really like my teaching job. The logic of kids including high schoolers makes me chuckle non stop. Especially when I have to keep a poker face when a kid is explaining why they have done something incredibly stupid. Once they explain you can kinda see that their motivation does make sense, or maybe I’m just strange.

So week 3 day 10 I am going to show up to my job, make my coffee and continue to enjoy the ride. Twenty years into my teaching career and I’ve never had two days the same. But if you can….please send chocolate. It really does help 😉

My First True Love Affair

When I was 8 I begged my Mum to let me join the instrumental music program at school. I wanted nothing more than to be able to play the violin. I was told, like I had been told many times previous, that I would be able to learn the piano when I turned 10. I have to admit it was such a torment having my great-grandmother’s upright piano in our formal lounge just sitting there and I couldn’t play it. Sometimes one of my grandmothers would play old dance hall music when she came over, and this would continued to make me want to learn to learn.

Not my Great-Grandmother’s piano but a baby grand that my children learn on.

Time went by (as it often does) and I was able to start piano lessons. A lovely old dear who was a spinster in her 60’s or 70’s (who knew except as a 10 year old she was extremely old to me). However through my early teenage years I continued to hound my mother to let me learn the violin. That was the instrument I so desperately wanted to play. When I was 15 I was finally given the green light. My mother took me to a violin teacher. Except as is the way of the world, that teacher introduced me to a different string instrument. This instrument was the viola.

I still remember when I first heard the melodious, rich, deep sounds of the viola. The power behind that sound! I instantly fell in love with that sound. We were in my music teachers parents house. She had only just moved back to town. My mother and I were crammed into a little side room with a couch, lots of music piled everywhere, a piano, instruments strategically balanced atop of sheet music and a cat that wandered in and out. All of my music teachers have had cats. And not just any breed of cat but always a Siamese or Burmese cat, sometimes both.

I worked hard at my chosen instrument and was able to achieve a standard high enough that 18 months after starting I went through the audition process for university. I wanted to study music and as pipe dreams go, I wanted to finish and then only play in orchestra’s that did Disney music soundtracks. Lets just say that I accomplished one of those dreams, that being my Bachelor of Music.

My Viola from when I was 17. Her name is Heather.

Once I left university I was hired to be an Instrumental Music Teacher, with my first permanent job in the small country town of Goondiwindi. A place where I learnt many things. Like learning how to do my job and finding love. That Love grew to be my Darling Husband. What I have learnt is that if you truely want to do something then you have to push and shove and be that dog with a bone. If I hadn’t been given the opportunity to have heard the “sales pitch” from those Instrument Music Teachers, then my life would be very different.

So let me ask you all something, what was the one thing from childhood that never left you? Did you pursue your idea or love affair? Truely, my need to make music has led me to many amazing experiences. Not all related to music but the music took me there. Whether that was new places, experiences or thoughts and feelings. I have truely been blessed. Honestly, if it hadn’t been for that first love affair when I was 8 for making music, I would not be who I am today.

What do you mean I have to go back to work!

This week sees me step back into my school and classroom. It will have been seven months since I last taught my kids, and about six months since I’ve actually had to work. It wasn’t that I had applied for leave to have wonderful adventures holidaying around the place. I was granted special leave due to the pandemic for my Husband’s illness with numerous hospital admissions and various medical appointments. After such a long leave of absence I’m anxious and nervous and excited about my return.

Nothing yet everything has changed within my work space. There has been some minor policy and procedural changes happen but, when you aren’t there for those changes, then those changes seem a lot bigger. I know I will get the hang of them but I guess change of any kind is like that, scary and unsettling . As much as we don’t always want to admit it, we are all creatures of habit. If you watch enough of nature it has its own rhythms and patterns which is its routine. When it is interrupted or changed then it too requires a period of adjustment. This shows if it flourishes and thrives or slowly wilts, stagnates or dies. I really hope that I am not the latter but the former.

What I am looking forward to is all the new crazy ideas I have had brewing in my head. How did I end up with so many ideas? Well, I was able to give them oxygen and fuel to go from a tiny spark to full fledge fire in my brain. I never thought I would say this but I have actually missed all my kids. Their strange little quirks and way of looking at life. I have one kid who I call my Rainman cross Sheldon Cooper. Let’s just say he’s challenging but also so rewarding to work with. He’s a fantastic reminder of how awesome kids truly are.

I have already started to plan what I will wear and what I will be packing myself for lunch. Silly I know, but as the old saying goes if you fail to plan then you plan to fail. So I move the anxiety and fear out of my head and focus on my new ideas, seeing all my kids again and making sure I have a plan A, plan B and plan C and something to eat that I enjoy for lunch.

My Backyard

These past few weeks have seen some action around my backyard. My pump from the river is working again so my lawn has started to come back to a green colour. Spring has sprung and the bird life is better than any TV viewing.

Early morning and the wonderful sounds of bird calls.

Husband Dear has finally finished the new chicken coop tractor with assistance from the two boys. The coop is a beast of a thing. All made from recycled timber that has been laying around the yard. My yard is being tidied and not looking so much like a junk heap. This means that the vegetable boxes are now back to being mine. Until the chicken tractor they had been living in my enclosed vegetable garden. I now have those garden boxes back and the whole section is fenced, so no moo cows can eat like they are at a Vegas buffet.

I’ve started to trim the tall trees and parts of the orchard. I have the soil being slowly prepped there to commence a food forest. Something I’ve been dreaming about since the day I heard of such a thing. Since moving to my 100 year old house on 20 acres on the river; I have fallen deeply into the cult of perma-culture. As far as cult’s go, it’s a pretty good one!

Husband Dear has ordered, and we should have in the next month or so a saw mill. This should see us starting to mill our own timber from the Bush Block and build a large shed. It is also hoped that when my kitchen is done I will have native Australian hardwood tops from timber that has been felled from our bush block for fire breaks.

I really enjoy my yard. I love where I live. I never dreamt that I would enjoy gardening as much as I do now that I live here. I have seen so many different and wonderful sights from my yard. There is nothing better than watching a flock of Little Black Cormorant flying just above the river in a V formation. Landing and diving to catch fish. To swim in the river in our front yard and have a Lungfish come up for a breath next to you. Scary as, but then you realise how lucky you are. My yard has shown me that nature is special and that I too am apart of it. Not above, or below, but apart of it.

Pay it Forward – Acts of Kindness

Earlier this year I experienced how humbling it can be when people come together to help, love and support you. Especially when the chips are down and you are focused on your own little bubble of burdens. Then magically you receive a card and a gift basket of various odds and ends, friends old and new sending texts and calling. For me I found this so humbling and feelings of being so very blessed.

I have always been a big believer in either doing acts of kindness of paying it forward. For years I have witnessed people who maybe feeling a little down or, they themselves are going through a rough patch. I have either offered my ears and a cuppa, a care package stocked full of all the things they love or simply given them a hug. Usually it depended on the person as to what they would appreciate, need or want. Not everyone appreciates a care package when all they need and want is a hug or a cuppa and cake at a cafe.

Truly paying it forward gives both the giver and receive such positive feelings. I have always enjoyed trying to make a persons day or their rough patch just a little brighter. What I don’t like is usually them knowing it was from me. I like being anonymous in my care packages of paying it forward. Why? Well, it’s not about me. I’m not doing it for the accolades or the thank you from the person. It is truly meant as a kindness to the person. A way of saying, someone see’s you and sees the pain or suffering or sadness that you are going through.

My challenge to you all is how could you pay it forward? What little acts of kindness could you spread to another? Pay it forward or acts of kindness do not need to cost you anything. The biggest cost to you is your time that you have given to see the person and time taken to give your kindness.

Retreat or RandR?

Today see’s Husband Dear going in for his annual colonoscopy. It’s an annual thing these days and has been for the last 5-6 years. A week before the procedure he goes on the white bread and chicken diet and as a family we try and join in solidarity.

This time though saw us head to the Bush Block three days before the procedure. It always amazes me how the place becomes such a retreat for myself and the boys. The boys go exploring and have built themselves hide outs and a shooting range, while Husband Dear jumps on his machine to clear lantana or push some tracks or fix our dams.

This 2000 acres has become so much more than just our simple Bush Block. It is our place for rest and relaxation, a property we are slowly raising cattle on as another income stream. In our times of doctor and hospital appointments a retreat for our souls, emotional well-being and a place to come together as a family.

As the weekend came to an end and we headed to the big smoke of Brisbane the worry and anxiety are not as heightened due to some camp fire action, the embrace of the mountains and good ‘ol fashioned adventures at our Bush Block.

Dear Athenaeum,

Oh be still my beating heart. What can I say…….the library. A place of wonder, excitement and for me pure unadulterated joy. You walk in and the place is abuzz. Quietly of course but still there is a buzz. I always manage to bump into someone long forgotten and we catch up.

From youth to now, I have seen a massive shift and change of a library’s function. No longer just a place for books but for all types of community engagement. I have to admit I was excited when a coffee machine pop up took over in a corner. Coffee and a biscuit (with proceeds going back to a local organisation) after pursuing a book to read. Or meet a friend for cuppa then grab a book or CD or DVD or that game for a family game night.

This was and still is one of my safe gathering places. When my children where at high school they would catch the bus to town then head to the library. Not because they have the same feelings about the place as me, but they would meet their tutor there. They felt safe there. They often would have time to browse the selections then settle down for their tutoring.

It was a place I could train my children on how to be independent. They could go and learn how to ask for help from their librarian. This helped them to practice talking to strangers but also pick the wandering librarian who they felt comfortable to approach. Even how to use a computer to locate information. They could wander looking at what they wanted and so could I. I thought that was a win win all round.

So when was the last time you went to your local library? Do you see it as a place that is more than just books? I haven’t been in the last few weeks myself, since going back to full time work. But I think that is exactly what my soul needs, library time.

“Healthy” Boxed Dinner Meals

I decided to trial one of those companies. You know the ones. They sell you food all individually weighed and packaged. The instructions are intense (cut the carrot in half, then half again then in 3mm strips). Covid-19 was still very much in play for our state and Husband Dear still didn’t have his body under control. Still had flying visits to Brisbane. Plus I have teenage boys who constantly need feeding. Let me just say I was not spending ages in a supermarket doing the Covid dance. The I’ll jump to the left and hopefully the other person would distance themselves from me. Frankly ma’ dear, that dance gets really tiring in small supermarket aisles!

So I got four nights of boxed dinners with all the ingredients to cook. “Ripper!” I thought. The boys could do some night time meals and I won’t have to think about what to feed the family for at least 4 nights. My first box was free…….no, had to pay because I wanted 4 nights. The free box was only for 3. That’s how they lure you in. Ah but wait……I still have to tackle the supermarkets. Why? Apparently I still have to feed everyone lunches, snacks and breakfasts. Some of the air in my ballon deflated a little. All good I thought. Dinner is the most expensive part of my grocery shop….I’ll be saving money.

Well, the first box arrived. We were all excited. Okay, I was excited. I did not have to think about what to feed and cook everyone for 4 nights. Box opened to reveal every thing was individually wrapped. Like everything! It was wrapped either in plastic or was in plastic bags then placed into a brown paper bag all with coloured dots. The recipe cards where intense. Even I who cook a lot had to read those recipes a few times before commencing. Lets just say that one night Oldest Son decided to cook a box meal. It was disaster. Too many words for basic instructions and his teenage brain melted down. Lucky Husband Dear was able to save the meal before the onion and garlic burnt and teenage son had thrown something. I believe the swearing was the tip off all was not right.

I did persist for at least a month with these dinners. They were great in a sense that I did not have to think about what to cook. I’m sure all the night time cooks out there know what I’m talking about. I’m not completely convinced that it saves money. Depending on how many nights dinners and types of dinners ordered it is well over $150 a week for just one meal a day. Then your normal grocery shop on top of that. One thing I will say is that we all got to experience some new meal flavours and combos and it helped me to have a break and get my mojo back for cooking.

I now keep getting emails to lure me back to the nightly boxed meal of convenience. At times I feel my will weakening and think hmmm maybe. The last email did have a great deal…….